I have a quote in my office that says (paraphrased) "Courage is sometimes that quiet voice inside that says I'll try again tomorrow." Those are the days that I come home and look for that quiet place within. I'm not hiding, I'm re-grouping. There was a time in my life that I hid from everything and everyone; looking for that "Prince Charming" so come and rescue me from myself and the life I had created and hated.
I have learned in the last few years that this life is mine to invent everyday, for better or for worse. I have learned to take responsibility for those actions. In my professional life, I work with those individuals whose lives are a tangle of bad choices. I get called upon when no one knows what else to do. I am part nurse, social worker, friend, enemy, and miracle worker. And I see where I could have so easily been. It scares me sometimes.
I look for that place of calm when my world gets to be overwhelming. I look for the mundane miracle. Something so ordinary that it could be easily overlooked. A hummingbird, butterfly, a circling hawk, a giggling baby, a hug from a friend, hearing " I love you" from someone who means the world to you, the scent of lavender, roses, or lilacs drifting on a gentle breeze... any number of things that ordinarily we could take for granted. But for just a moment we stop, take a deep breath, and remember that we don't have to have all the answers all the time. It is alright to stop for awhile and rest on the side of the road, knowing that we will begin again tomorrow.
I hope that you find that quiet place within and around you today. I hope that you know that your greatest courage is the ability to try again tomorrow.